These days.

I scared the hell out of me. 

I have to have self-control.

Everyday, stalking at my best. Pfft. No life? Yeah, go figure.

There's this one whole thing about you that I couldn't understand but man, it is freaking attractive.

And I am not entirely sure about what I feel these days, whether I really, really, really like you or its just the idea of liking someone that fancies me. Either way I need to sort this out.

Not being in control scares the shit out of me. 

Being at the state of not knowing freaks me out.

And I don't really make peace with the truth either. Sometimes.

Coward much? Yeah, you can say that.

I need help, pronto.

Blergh. I hate this feeling. Often it drags my self-esteem to level zero.

Considering I am at level...hmm..what, 3? out of 10? So yeah, shitholes.

I know, swearing, that's not going to solve or prove anything but I just need to feel...STRONG. Somehow, I don't know. Mehh.

I blame people to feel better sometimes. Secretly, most of the time. Yeah, boo me! Boo!!

 I think I've to pay my dues now, because I couldn't blame anyone this time around. Anyone but myself.