I cried. I freaking cried.

Not out of fear or frustration. 

Just joy.

Simply out of joy. 

But rainbows don't last.

 And I am forced to shut myself down. 

With anger and frustration. 

Oh boy, I'm so furious last night, I couldn't speak.

I could imagine myself pushing you down the stairs. 

But nahh, I realised I'm way better than that.